Am I fucked up in my head? my experience as a middle child has defined me as a person lost in confusion. But, one thing for sure is that I don’t get recognized of all my hard work. everything I do is with out the help of anyone. Yet, people take pride of MY! accomplishments in which they only contribute obstacles, crying my self to sleep (every other night), deep depression, and at times suicidal mentality.
Nothing goes right in my life. It started when I was a child were learning two different language was difficult to learn that made my parents disappointed of me, compare to my older sister the smart one of my family. Learning something difficult it lead to getting hit instead of looking for help. Getting hit every other night result to not trust anyone and to keep shit to myself and try my hardest to make my parents proud but I know I will never feel like I am going to give them that satisfaction.
What makes even disappointed of myself is my moms support. My mom has always been a supportive to my younger brother and older sister; but in her eyes I was her stupid chubby child that needed less attention. Until this day she pays no attention to me but to her hate towards my dad and the love for her boyfriend.
Nothing in my life seems to function properly. My family constantly has major problems,
My car breaks down a lot, I am not the brightest student, none of parents seem to care of how I am. it seems like my life has/is pointless.